Since arriving back home to California, I've had this nagging, goofy urge to refer to all the Spanish place names (Palo Alto) as their English translations (Tall Tree). I am aware that this amuses only me and have thus far managed to keep this to myself.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
My last girlfriend and I broke up last June. We had a good short run
in the beginning (August to December), but from January to June, the
relationship had turned so shitty and mentally/verbally abusive towards
me that, once the breakup happened, I never looked back.
Curses on you, Facebook, for allowing this crazy ex of mine a venue to subtly inform me she's dating again. I've been preparing myself for this inevitability and what has come up for me is that I don't care, but I guess that's not entirely true because, thinking about it, I felt that I seriously would feel bad for anyone getting involved with my ex because she's super crazy and immature.
Now, I am an emotionally weird person. I have, right hand to God, no desire whatsoever to be involved with E again, yet part of me is slightly jealous or something? I don't get it. Anyway, I was curious and checked out this new girl and she's so damn cute. I am not jealous of the cuteness because I don't give a flip about who E dates, but it does make me feel sorrier for this nice-seeming girl. She has no idea what she's getting involved with.
This is the second time I have really, really wanted to warn someone I didn't know that they might want to think twice about their involvement with a totally crazy person. However, there is no way to go about this that would seem sane, that wouldn't get me in trouble with the crazy, and probably very little likelihood that the person I was trying to tip off would listen to me anyway. It feels like wanting to yell at somebody in a movie, "No, girl.. don't do it! Nononono...aaaaagh, no.."
So, again, I feel helpless, like I know there's going to be a messy train wreck and I just have to stand by and let it happen..
Posted by A at 9:37 AM
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
My current celebrity crush is Anna Torv. I was bored and started watching Fringe and what immediately hooked me was that there was an ass-kicking female lead character. Oh, and she happens to be so hot.
She's cute and hot and she has freckles. There is also this soft-spoken tomboyishness, which may simply be the character of Agent Dunham, but whatever it is, I like it. Then there's this episode of Fringe that is one of the hotter things I've watched -- Agent Dunham is straight, but does a mind meld with a guy capable of influencing other people's emotions.. just as he's about to seduce a stripper. Anna's acting is superb and her desire for the woman is titillatingly palpable.. I'm practically fanning myself just thinking about it. Anyway, all of this has moved her to the number one spot on my Celebrities I'd Like to Make Out With list.
Imagine my glee when I Googled her and discovered she was in a BBC show and played a lesbian. Now I get to sit in the privacy of my room to perversely revel in the scenes where Anna kisses girls.
Posted by A at 7:29 AM