Monday, September 15, 2003

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I have recently had some of the most random search engine searches referred somehow to my page. Earlier today, someone arrived at my site with the search of, you guessed it, 'free crackwhore porn no spyware'. I checked the search myself, and indeed, my site comes up as one of four sites. It's freaky.. I wonder who has been hiding free crackwhore porn on my site, and where I can get in on it.

That's a joke, kids. I have no free crackwhore porn.. but it sure sounds tantalizing, doesn't it?

I am pleased to announce that my improv article for the school paper is finally finished. I've been wracking my brain for weeks to figure out what the hell to say, and to get the right tone. Well, I polished it up earlier today and dropped it off at the Humanities office. Hopefully the director will like it.

I was pretty pleased to discover that I and Delta Psi Omega have our very own folder in the Humanities office, which means that the director, and anyone else, can pass notes to me using my folder. Yay!

So there are some dates looming now, regarding getting off my ass and actually getting my idea out there. The next Chronicle comes out on the 22nd (with my article in it, hopefully), I am speaking/giving demonstrations at two theater classes toward the end of the month (the 24th and the 30th), and October 7th is the first club meeting.

It's kind of strange that my idea, my club, is finally becoming real. I'm very excited, but I'm worried about various small details, like what happens if there's no interest and I end up with a club of three people or something. I'm not really sure what to expect, since this is my first semester at WVUP and I have no idea just how big theater is there. I'm hoping to get at least five people, but I guess we'll see.

My life has become fairly boring, I must admit. It's been pretty much all about school or work, and my social life sort of on the outskirts. I know I'm kind of slacking in psych, which irritates me, but not really enough to cause me to work harder. I have a test in it tomorrow, two chapters.. and I have no idea how I'll do. I certainly have not been putting forth enough energy in studying to ace the test, that's for sure.

Math is pretty much cake so far, and I have a test in that, also on two chapters, on Wed. I'm not going to bother studying much for that, since it's still fairly basic and I feel pretty confident about it. Kind of a shocker, knowing how much I suck at math.. but I feel like I'm learning different techniques that make it much easier.

As for my social life, I guess I actually kind of have one now. I have been hanging out with Rob quite a bit, since we usually just relax at his house, and maybe watch a movie. Evil Josh has a brother named Chris, who recently started working at OG with us, and I've also been hanging out with him lately. Then there's Mikey, my little gay friend who cracks me the hell up. And there's even Kit, which might be the biggest shock of all!

Kit called me Friday night to see if I wanted to go out, but all the front of the house people had a mandatory 8am meeting the next day. I ended up passing, though I did want to hang out with her, and then we ended up going out the next night, where we ran into Mikey and hung out with him a bit.

I will just mention that I got far too drunk, though I really don't think I had all that much to drink. It's the first time I've thrown up while living in my apartment. I was just gnarly sick and I knew I'd feel much better, both then and the next morning, if I puked. I ended up lying on the bathroom floor for a while, and then falling asleep, but I woke up suddenly and knew I must worship the porcelain god. It did make me feel better, though I felt fairly gross the next day.

My only current drama is this bizarre crush I have right now. It defies all logic, so I'm not even sure if you really call it a crush. But Chris has a girlfriend named Katie, and ever since I first met her, I got kind of a gaydar vibe off of her. I thought maybe I was just imagining it, like wishful thinking or something, so when Mikey hung out with us all, I asked him to keep his eye open and tell me what he thought.

The result of that was that he absolutely agreed there was some gaydar vibe there, and that Katie seems very into me. The thing is that Katie seems interested in me. We have conversations apart from the boys (mostly because they end up talking about boy things), where not only does she seem to be pretty smart and knowledgeable about a lot of things, she seems to hang on my every word, seems to want to know my thoughts and opinions about things.. basically, she seems very interested in me.

What I can't decide is whether that interest is simply admiration or something else completely platonic, or whether the attraction and gaydar vibes I get from her are true. I'm desperately trying to figure it out, and it really intrigues me.

For one, Katie is 18. That's young, and everyone is welcome to give me a hearty smack upside the head for even considering it. But what can I say? I dunno, I'm kind of interested back, even though not only is she young and drinks way too much, I'm not sure she's really my type. I just can't get past the entire intrigue part of it. The Scorpio in me wants to dig and peel back layers and figure out just what it is, and why.

It's not like I live my life logically... On one hand I keep kicking myself and saying all the reasons it's not a good idea, and then on the other, I'm like, Oh, Katie's going to be there? I want to go.

Anyway, knowing me, combined with my awful luck, nothing will come out of it. And that's why I'm calling it a crush. But it's a kind of diversion right now. :P

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